sighh.. that statement is absolutely true. you people usually get smarter each day, you've learned from your mistakes and figured out what you should do to make it right, and come up with the best result. that was you..
but me ?
what about me ?
i get dumb, dumber, and a lot dumber ! like i don't have a brain to even think what i've done wrong. like i don't have a heart to feel which is suits my feelings the best, and which is best for other people around me. it's like i don't have any will to make an action and fix all those things up.
it may seemed like that though.
but you just don't know HOW MUCH EFFORT THAT I'VE GIVEN..
until i'm giving up. because all those efforts have never brought me any good results, which in several puzzling circumstances i've never get the picture why. and you know, i'm getting tired of all of this.
i'd really like to have a normal happy life just like everyone else got.
but why just can't i ?
do my efforts not enough to finally maintain that goodness ?
that sort of particular reason for me to really put on a real smile. not fake. just like what i've always put on.
you can never imagine what would it be like to be me ? to feel just what i exactly feel ? to know things that i know ?~which i don't really want to know~to go through what i'm going through ? to get things that i always get ? i bet you CAN'T stand. not even a day of my life.
see i've never meant to be spoiled or pant or whine. but every brake has limits. if they've came across, the brake wouldn't be that strong to stop a car drive fast and faster. while the wind was so windy and loosen the balance of the car.
only one sign. HELP. but no one hears it. well maybe they hear it but they just.. don't care. they NEVER really care. they only care about themselves. and of what they wanted. and what they needed. and what they liked.
i'm tired. i can't take it anymore. so.. help :(
but me ?
what about me ?
i get dumb, dumber, and a lot dumber ! like i don't have a brain to even think what i've done wrong. like i don't have a heart to feel which is suits my feelings the best, and which is best for other people around me. it's like i don't have any will to make an action and fix all those things up.
it may seemed like that though.
but you just don't know HOW MUCH EFFORT THAT I'VE GIVEN..
until i'm giving up. because all those efforts have never brought me any good results, which in several puzzling circumstances i've never get the picture why. and you know, i'm getting tired of all of this.
i'd really like to have a normal happy life just like everyone else got.
but why just can't i ?
do my efforts not enough to finally maintain that goodness ?
that sort of particular reason for me to really put on a real smile. not fake. just like what i've always put on.
you can never imagine what would it be like to be me ? to feel just what i exactly feel ? to know things that i know ?~which i don't really want to know~to go through what i'm going through ? to get things that i always get ? i bet you CAN'T stand. not even a day of my life.
see i've never meant to be spoiled or pant or whine. but every brake has limits. if they've came across, the brake wouldn't be that strong to stop a car drive fast and faster. while the wind was so windy and loosen the balance of the car.
only one sign. HELP. but no one hears it. well maybe they hear it but they just.. don't care. they NEVER really care. they only care about themselves. and of what they wanted. and what they needed. and what they liked.
i'm tired. i can't take it anymore. so.. help :(
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